Do this. Don't do this. Obey this rule. Be home by this time. Don't eat late. Watch those calories.

Everyday, you hear this. Someway, someone is telling you to follow a set of guidelines, for fear of repercussions that only break down to "you'll be sorry" or "you don't want to find out". The reasoning: "Because I said so".

Eventually, you get sick of it. Eventually, you want to see what these consequences are. Eventually, you break free. And guess what? It's exhilarating. You love it, up till you get caught. Then you fear the consequence. You lose something. A privilege, trust, or something else that could be deemed important.

Why am I typing this right now? Because I'm in the midst of a experiment that I unwillingly started last week.

Last week, I lost my job. Sucks. There was the regular feelings that came with it, the anger, the frustration, the worry about what's next.

However, as the week progressed, for some reason, I stopped caring. I stopped caring about having a job, having income, being home alone constantly, being by myself. It was like the world went away in my mind, and I started to live for myself, not anyone else.

I drank soda at 11:30pm, stayed up till 3am regularly, slept in the afternoon, spent money with little to no regret, made music with no regard to conventional practices, and wrote lyrics about situations in my life and didn't restrain one single thought. I bought junk food and candy, used a 2 for 1 coupon on myself with no shame, shouted out how I really felt about people and my situations, and for once in my life, I ceased to show concern about anything and anyone.

So what have I learned? I've learned that in my case, a good coping mechanism when faced with problems is to break down barriers of convention and good taste, walls of do and don't do, and be wild for a few days. Just don't care about the world, the people inside it, and what they say...let go of all the conventions and rules you've encountered, and for once, do something without caring about anyone's opinion.

Morpheous and Tyler Durden are what I consider to be prototypes of this lifestyle. Both of them were fictional characters, but for audiences, we identified with them, and for some of us, we wanted to be like them, free of all concerns and rules, and acting like they wanted to. No, I'm not suggesting that you lead the resistance against corporate America/the machines (now that I think of it, they seem to be one and the same), but I do think that watching Fight Club and the Matrix is a good way to open doors and slowly begin to free yourself, even if it is for a few days.

"You have to let it all go, Neo. Fear, doubt, and disbelief. Free your mind." - Morpheous

Recommended listening/watching:
The Matrix
Fight Club
any music that may be considered "immature" and "outrageous"

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