Listening to Incubus' "Drive" while waiting for my laptop to get fixed has given me a lot of time to relfect on stuff recently and somehow, I'm on Blogger.

Weird.

Well anyways, I think it's safe to say that the "worst period of time in my life" is mostly over. I've noticed how in comparison to this school year, and last school year, my mind set is different in a subtle matter. Last year, I went to school sort of torn, between things left unsaid and a future that was right in my face. Fortunetly, I kind of adapted to changes and slowly let go. Sure, there was at least a few rough spots, but I think I saw threw them.

Now this year, it's the same, only there's a small difference. For some reason, I have had almost no desire to go back home. I can probably guess that it's the "single dorm" life, or the realization that I've done all I can in Northboro, and that I spent so much time at home, I had to get out and perhaps stay out.

Yeah, even I feel a little different about it. School is good, and I think I'm at a comfortable point in life, where there's no major problem, but there are some things I could improve.

Also, I noticed that for the first time in my whole life, I don't have a crush on someone. Which is very very good. Why, you ask?

Lack of stress, that's why.

If I could describe it to you, it's like a balance beam....every move you make either continues the routine or ends it in embarassment. I've been in enough stupid situations to realize that perhaps in my DNA, I can only put my energy and time into so many subjects or causes. Sure it sucks to wake up without the knowledge that there's someone special waiting for you in the outside world, but for me, it's knowledge I don't need or want.

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Maximum Impact Song List:
Deftones- Change
Incubus- Drive
DJ Shadow- Midnight In A Perfect World