Sometimes, in life, people go through a period of time, where everything just seems rough, and surviving is not easy.

You could say that I'm going through that right now.

Pretty much, as I sit here and type this, I'm in possibly the tightest spot of my life both emotionally and physically.

Why, you ask? Let's start:

• No Money: Yeah, pretty much I'm in the double digits right now. It's quite a limitation.
• No Job: This jives with the first problem, and it's a pretty bad combination. Trying to find work somewhere is tough, everyone's looking for a job, and pretty much, my options are running very thin. You gotta love how most employers say "We'll call you" and they don't call you at all....You have to call them yourself.
• The Battle of Reason vs Emotions: A tough one for anyone to go through, it's even worse when it's unrequited love, and as much you want to move on, your heart disagrees and wants to go back to the happy times in life. It's quite difficult, and in my case, it's harder than average. Say for example, someone special comes into your life, at the right time, like during a real dark period in life, and by their personality traits, turn your life around. Then, for some reason, you fall head over heels for them, and overnight, they became your best friend of sorts. Somehow, there's a deeper link but you'd never tell that person how much they meant to you, knowing how emotionally fragile you can get when things fall apart. One day, that person will go their way, you'll go yours, and you'll try to build a new life. Eventually, when that person comes back into your life, it's tough because you don't want to get hurt again by re-investing feelings, just to watch it disappear again.

I guess I might as well give you a playlist of songs this week that makes this entry a little more real:



see y'all next time